As you might’ve noticed, I’ve been a bit MIA, and so much has happened in the past few weeks that I don’t even know where to start. What I can start with is our baby girl hasn’t made her appearance yet, and today I am officially 40 weeks, 1 day. Yep, I know–I have zero idea how we’re already here. I remember feeling like time was going fairly slowly, and then one day I woke up and was like, “Well, I’m 39 weeks today.” When I saw my doctor last week, he said he thinks she is taking her time and will show up late; I guess she’s pretty comfortable in there.

The good news is, in general, I feel really good. Don’t get me wrong, I don’t sleep incredibly well at night, I wake up a few times to go to the bathroom and have a harder time falling back asleep, but overall I’ve really enjoyed being pregnant and can’t believe how fast it all flew by! There’s a lot of anticipation now, especially since my due date has come and gone. It’s like that feeling you get before a big, important test or work event, and you know you’ll be ok, but you aren’t sure what to expect. Plus, in the case of labor and delivery, I’ve never done it and don’t know when it will happen, and there’s no way to fully prepare for the experience. We’re finishing up some last-minute house things before she arrives, which included me telling Vlad that we HAD to get some of our Christmas decorations up. I don’t know what made me think that had to happen, but I got my mind set on it over the weekend, and we went to our storage unit to load up the car and set up. I see the doctor this afternoon, and for all I know I could go into labor any minute. But for now, it’s a waiting game and it’s all on her schedule, not mine.

Last I told you, I was having the baby in NYC. That all changed, and now I’m back in Florida as of a few weeks ago to have the baby in Florida. To make a really long, really scary story short, I had a growth ultrasound in NYC that ended up being read incorrectly, (If I even went into all of the details, you’d be beyond shocked, which is how we felt as well.) and the doctor thought there could be a skeletal issue with the baby. It hit me like a truck; we didn’t see how this could be the case since nothing had ever been irregular in the ultrasounds before, and after quite the scare, it turns out the tech measured her wrong and she is fine. It was the most stressful situation I’ve ever been in, and everything else that seemed ‘big’ in my life was no longer big at all. All I cared about was our baby’s health and what we could do to take care of her. If something had really been wrong, I wanted to be back in Florida where my family is and wanted to make a plan of what to do to take care of our baby the best we could. I’m thankful to the doctors we have in Florida who took care of us, and I am really looking forward to meeting this little one–boy, do I have so many stories about her earliest days for her when she’s older!

Soon after we found out that the baby was ok, Vlad learned his father had passed away unexpectedly. To say he is heartbroken is an understatement. There is never a good time to lose a loved one, but there was something about the timing–only 3.5 weeks before the baby was due–that seemed even more unfair. Vlad’s dad was so excited to meet his granddaughter (she’s the first grandchild for both of our parents), and while it isn’t at all what we expected or wanted, I believe they already have a special bond. It’s been a really emotional time (pregnancy does that to you), but the loss of a parent is extremely difficult and I can’t pretend this has been easy. What we keep focusing on is the fact that a new life is joining us, and we know how much Vlad’s dad would want us to enjoy every minute with this little one. I know there will be so many moments when Vlad wishes his dad were here to see him be a father, and while we can’t ever replace that, we will do our best to tell stories and share photos so that our daughter knows about her Opa. Life doesn’t always go how you expect, but it continues going, so while we will have so many sad moments over the loss of his dad, we’ve been able to find happiness in great memories and knowing that while Vlad’s dad isn’t here with us physically, we feel him with us every day.

We’ll keep you posted on the arrival of baby girl PurseBlog! ❤ Megs

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  • Ellen Peters

    I’m sorry for your loss.

  • Diana

    So sorry for your family’s loss. Imagine your father-in-law getting the first peek at the baby while they’re both between worlds. She’ll remind you of him in the best way.

  • V

    I’m so very sorry for your loss! No words seem comforting when you loose someone you love. I’ve been thinking about you & that bundle Megs…I think she’s waiting for some turkey:) lol

  • Sparky

    Oh no… so sorry for your loss. A friend had the same loss just before her first child (grandchild). Just heartbreaking. Comes a time in our lives when we are faced with depths of sorrow and heights of joy. We’re thinking of you.

  • purseinsanity

    I’m so sorry to hear about your loss! My condolences to you and Vlad. May your soon to arrive baby girl help heal the wounds and fill your heart with happiness!

  • Jeannie Shmina Greenwald

    I’m sorry for your loss of Vlad’s dad. Big hugs. Losing a parent is big. Good luck with the coming baby! Happy/sad times.

  • Nini Kaferle

    I’m so very sorry to hear about your loss… Words seem small and poor when you loose someone you love, but please know that our thoughts are with you… My heartfelt condolences and warmest sympathy to you and Vlad… All the best to the two of you + baby D. from one of your French readers.

  • FashionableLena

    Prayers are with you and Vlad. My mother died a year before I got married. Up until then, we had been planning the wedding together. It’s not easy to grieve and celebrate at the same time.
    I’m glad that everything with baby girl is okay. No one likes to hear that devastating news about their child. It a gut puncher.

  • Kristen

    such an emotional time…Just wait until you meet her! You guys can’t even begin to grasp the deep, deep love you will feel. Vlads father will be there with you in spirit and you will be overwhelmed with love and joy! Best of luck! Ive been thru child birth 3 times! Never “easy” but always worth it! You are STRONG.

  • Eos

    My condoleances to both of you and Vlad’s family. I’m truly sorry.
    My grandma passed away just a few months after my son’s birth.
    At the exact time of her death, I woke up, and I felt her presence around my son’s baby bed, and I felt she’ld be always there for him.
    He was extremely important to her and she has never left him ever since. Every hard time he has to go through, we can feel her around us. You know, eventhough we can not see the loved ones who passed away does not mean they’re not with us anymore. It’s the principle of the soul.

    Take care and have as much rest as you can Megs, it will be even more exhausting than you think ;)

  • kemilia

    I check here every day to see if the Baby has arrived and didn’t expect to see this sad news. I’m so sorry for the loss of Vlad’s dad. My Momma passed away this past spring and every time someone has said “I’m sorry for your loss,” it has helped me a little bit, I hope this helps Vlad a bit too.

  • Lina Lee

    I’m so sorry about your loss. My condolences to you and to your husband. Vald’s father he Rest In Peace. I know it’s not easy.
    Good luck with your birth to your baby girl. I hope all the best in life to you and to your husband and everyone.
    Take care of yourself.?? xx
    All of us can’t wait to see you and your husband holding your baby? Pics!

  • laura

    I am so sorry for your loss but I am glad everything is okay with your baby girl. Take care and keep us posted.

  • sev2108

    I’m so sorry for yours and Vlad’s loss. What a terrible time for both of you. I hope the entrance of the next generation Dusil makes the loss a bit easier to bear. Grandpa will surely smile down on his precious granddaughter and watch her grow. My own little girl made her entrance last Wednesday – good luck to both you and Vlad. (And take advantage of alllll the help the nurses provide!) xo

  • Smithy

    I am sorry to hear about Vlad’s Dad passing away. I hope you find comfort in your memories and a shoulder to cry on in your grief.

  • Brooke Resnick

    I’m so sorry for your loss. I lost my father 10.5 months ago so I completely understand how hard it is. I’m sending prayers to you and family. I’m so glad baby girl is all good! We all cannot wait to “meet” her! :)

  • W S M

    Very sorry for your loss. Thoughts are with you and Vlad and best wishes for a safe delivery and a healthy baby girl and her mama.

  • Tiffany

    Oh Megs & Vlad…sorry to hear about the stress of the ultrasound results. I remember with my first how every test we did had something that was “a bit off”, and it was incredibly worrying and stressful (in the end she was healthy). I’m so thankful to hear that it was due to a wrong measurement and hoping and praying for a safe, smooth delivery. You’ve got this, Megs! It kinda feels a bit impossible at the time but the thing that kept me going through labour was knowing that our bodies are meant to do this, and that it’s 24-ish hours (hopefully less) of crazy to get them out of our bellies and into our arms.
    Regarding Vlad’s father – I am so sorry to hear about this. Reading your news made me tear up a bit and I completely, completely understand how this feels so unfair, but also commend you for focusing forward. My sincere condolences for your loss and I’m sending much love and hugs from Canada.
    Enjoy the rest of your pregnancy and looking forward to hearing about the arrival of your darling girl. xoxo

  • Dell Q

    Words cannot describe how very sorry I am for your family in the passing of Vlad’s father, and your daughter’s grandfather. My father had a heartattack 2 weeks before our daughter was born this August, his first grandchild, and he had emergency surgery two days before my baby shower. He was two hours away from the closest hospital, out in the wilderness, and he was positive he was dying. As he laid on the ground, he asked that God give him more time to see his only grandchild be born. I can’t help but feel a closeness to your post. I will keep your family in my prayers. I wish you all comfort in the joy of your new baby. God bless.

  • Vicky

    I’m sorry for your loss and glad to hear that the baby is ok. I hope she arrive at the best time and healthy and all.