There are so many things that go through my mind on a daily basis, and as a self-proclaimed over-thinker my brain truly does not stop going from the minute I wake up until I fall asleep at night. When I get a thought in my head—good, bad or anything in between, it often plays in a loop on repeat. Lately my thoughts have been consumed, like everyone else, with what’s going on in the world and the uncertainty of what the future holds.

Life is currently on pause and while I wish our ages paused along with it, that’s not the case. So right now the only thing I know for sure is that, in the not-so-distant-future, I’ll be turning one year older. Government officials have said for now that this national lockdown is on through the month of April and rightfully so. That being said, I’ll be living the last month of my twenties in quarantine because on May 1st I turn 30.

30 is big a milestone and while I don’t fear the age itself, this milestone has forced me to assess my life as is and my future as it will be. Not to mention, with all that’s going on in the world these thoughts are magnified, and it’s truly a strange time to be nearing such a milestone.

I’ve toyed back and fourth at the idea of buying myself something to commemorate this birthday. Something I’ll have and cherish forever. For awhile I had my sights set on a vintage Chanel Camera bag, but given everything that’s going on I’m not sure I’m financially comfortable with spending that much money. There is one other bag that’s been on my wishlist and I’m almost afraid to share it with you since it’s the only one I’ve seen of its kind for sale.

I’m talking about this adorable, Fendi Zucca Mini Chef bag. I’ve toyed with the idea of a vintage Fendi bag for a bit now, and in the midst of searching for Sex & the City-era Baguette bags I came across this petite little lady. I immediately adored this bag because of its distinctively unique shape. Though it screams Fendi due to the iconic Fendi FF print, I like that it’s a little bit different. This bag just won’t me leave me alone—popping up in my Facebook ads and plastered on the side of every website I visit. Even if I wanted to forget it the internet won’t let me—anyone feel me?

While the price point isn’t stopping me at all there are a few hesitations on my mind. The first is shopping at all given the current economic climate. While I know I don’t need to justify my actions to anyone, myself included, I keep reminding myself that I’ve made various donations to help during this crisis. Yet still there’s a slight twinge of guilt when I think about buying a bag right now.

Additionally I’m not sure how I feel about buying vintage. I get that any kind of shopping is a risk right now and that precautions should be taken when discarding boxes and packaging ect., but what about a fabric vintage bag? Part of me feels like there is a slight risk but chances are the benefit out weighs all that.

Truthfully I’m unsure if I’m going to purchase this bag, another bag or anything at all. What I can tell you though is I’ll keep her in my dreams (for now).

Sweet Summertime

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