This is one of those posts that’s hard to know where to begin. What I’m about to delve into is long and personal, with details that may make some of you wonder why I chose to share so much, but people close to me know how open I am. Though I spend most of my time discussing my thoughts on handbags with you, over the years, between both the blog and PurseForum, I’ve shared much more. I feel really close to our readers and have shared in some of your joys and sadnesses since PB started. I feel like this little community we’ve built online is an extended part of my family. I’ve shared my engagement, wedding, moves, work accomplishments, and now the news of our baby girl on the way!

I have to preface this by saying that my journey to motherhood while harder than some, was far easier than many others. I don’t ever want to come off as if my struggle was the worst, because truth be told, it wasn’t. Sure, I was frustrated at times and worried, but I am sitting here writing this post being nearly 6 months pregnant. I can’t pretend to know what it’s like for those of you who have struggled for years, with multiple rounds of IVF, miscarriages, and beyond. I’ve always been someone who finds comfort in being an open book. It’s cathartic for me and helps me process situations that are less than ideal, and on top of that, I come from a very open family. Although some people worry that sharing the bad or hard things in their lives may leave people thinking differently of them, I’ve found the opposite. At the beginning of last fall, I was in the midst of trying to get pregnant and working with my doctors on it, and when it went from “trying to get pregnant” to “having trouble getting pregnant,” I wanted to tell you about it. I was frustrated, spending a lot of time at the doctor’s office and not posting as much as usual. I thought writing about the trouble I was having might make any of you having problems conceiving feel less alone, along with myself. Funny enough, just how timing always seems to work out, I found out I was pregnant put off the discussion for a few months so I could share the joyful news with you at the appropriate time.

In addition to the baby news, I also wanted to share a bit more about my fertility issues, which are the kind that plague so many women. I can tell you, without hesitation, I never thought I’d be in that position. I am one of four kids, and I never worried about getting pregnant; I was one of those people who just thought it would be really easy for me. I suppose most people never think it’s going to be them, just like so many health issues, but what I’ve learned is that there is a lot of misinformation on how long it takes a perfectly healthy couple, on average, to conceive–in reality, it’s around six months. On top of that, more and more couples are experiencing fertility issues, and though it may seem like everyone around you is getting pregnant, it’s likely that some of those women had problems to get there. It’s a feeling of shame for many, and I felt that too, but there are so many people who deal with it.

I don’t find fault with anyone for not sharing their struggles with conception–I totally get it. I went through it too. Fertility is deeply tied with womanhood and social expectations of women, and more so than I ever realized until my journey began. I won’t pretend I didn’t have my moments; I did feel “less than,” I did feel broken, I did feel alone, I did feel embarrassed. I felt like the one thing I wanted so much right then might never happen, and the first time that thought crossed my mind, I panicked a bit. It’s just not something I had planned for myself, and it took a bit of re-centering myself through talking to Vlad and my family and friends for me to pick myself up at times.

When I got the first indication that conceiving might be a journey for me, I wanted to hide that information. I closed up and thought I would keep it to myself. But a few days later, my mentality changed completely. Of course Vlad knew, and I told my family, but then I started telling some friends. Then some more friends. And soon, if it came up with an acquaintance and it was a natural progression into the topic, I would share with that person as well. By now, I have no problem sharing all of the details with anyone who asks–it’s been helpful to me and I hope it’s helpful to others. With that in mind, I’m going to get into the nitty gritty of my medical and fertility problems below, for anyone who is having trouble conceiving or worries they may have trouble in the future. (If I leave anything out and you have questions, go ahead and ask!)

For me it all started around the age of 16. Soon after I started my menstrual cycle, I realized a few things: I wasn’t regular at all, I had horribly painful periods and my experiences didn’t match up to those of my friends. I tried many things to regulate my cycle and help with the pain, including plenty of birth control pills and patches. They helped a bit, but I had a few hospital visits over the years for ovarian cysts that ruptured and caused such horrible pain I’d pass out. I had many doctors tell me something along the lines of, “Once you get pregnant, these issues should work themselves out.” I believed that; little did I know that getting pregnant would be harder than I thought.

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Fast forward a bit, and we arrive to 18 months ago. Most people are told to try to conceive for a year if they’re under 35 or six months if they’re over 35, before seeing their OBGYN. I decided that, with the issues I’d had over the years, to be more proactive. A bit over a year ago, I was due a yearly checkup, so I decided to talk to my doctor about wanting to start a family. We had already been trying for a few months (Isn’t there a better way of saying that? It sounds so weird.) and my doctor knew the erratic history of my menstrual cycle, ovarian cysts (which, for a while, they thought could be PCOS or endometriosis), so he ran some blood work to check my hormone levels. I expected great results to follow a few days later.

Instead of the positive news I had been hoping for, my doctor told me one hormone level, progesterone, was very low at a point in my cycle that it should be spiking, and even if I were able to get pregnant with it like that, my chance of carrying the baby to term was low. That’s when I started learning a lot about hormones, cycles, ovulation kits and beyond. I could go into every detail, but the gist of the next few months was taking Clomid (a drug to raise my estrogen levels and hopefully spike my progesterone level after ovulation), monitoring my ovulation with an at-home kit, and a lot of blood work. I was optimistic, and I remember with my first round, for some reason I thought not only would I get pregnant, but I’d end up with twins!

Clomid is given to a lot of women struggling to get pregnant, and I was on it for 5 months. I had hot flashes, acne and weight gain, and with each blood test that showed my progesterone levels were still low, we’d have to up the dose. We had one cycle where my levels were so good, the doctor thought I could be pregnant, but he told me not to get my hopes up. I did, though, and when I took the pregnancy test and “not pregnant” flashed in front of my face, my heart sank. Actually, I can attest to the fact that each pregnancy test that has an empty circle or a “not pregnant” or only one line is a little stab to the heart, whether you’ve been trying for one cycle or more than a year.

The Clomid wasn’t getting it done, and my doctor didn’t want me on it for more than 6 months at a time. After a few cycles of that method, he told me it was time for a fertility specialist. If it weren’t for such amazing doctors along the way, I would have broken down much sooner. But my doctors were so positive and knew we could find a way. Our fertility specialist was amazing. He was one of those people who I know was supposed to come into my life. His staff was wonderful and he was so calming, and upon our first meeting, he looked at all of my results (and Vlad’s, because by this time, they involve the man as well) and told me confidently, “We’re going to figure this out, something is going on.”

There were a lot more tests. A lot of blood was drawn. Specific appointments and specific times with specific instructions. Lots of ultrasounds. (Not the fun ones.) And more testing. Slowly, the fertility specialist whittled away possible problems until he found exactly what was happening. I don’t know how to say this without being a bit graphic, so feel free to skip this part if you want, but I told you I wanted to be open: the reason I wasn’t getting pregnant was I had a “hostile cervix,” meaning his swimmers could not make it to my egg. We don’t know what caused it, but the drug I was on could have played a part, or it could just be how my body is–we won’t know until we try for our next baby. My doctors solved this problem with intrauterine insemination (IUI), in addition to hormones to support a pregnancy. The IUI procedure would bypass the cervix and allow me the chance to get pregnant.

With more ultrasounds and blood work, my first IUI was a few days later. Two nights before the procedure, Vlad had to put a shot in my stomach that helped release the mature eggs. It didn’t hurt, but it was emotional; actually, it was all emotional. I went in early on a Sunday morning–timing is very important–and had the procedure. IUI itself, while not the most comfortable, was very quick. Then came the waiting. With all things working correctly, the doctor told me to be optimistic but remember it could still take up to 6 months with IUIs to get pregnant. I mentally prepared for more months ahead, and the doctor still had a few tests he wanted to run to rule out other issues. I was hopeful, but to be honest, I didn’t think the first cycle would work. From everyone I talked to and what I read, it seemed unlikely. So I sat, and I waited. I had to wait for two weeks to go back to the doctor for a blood test to check if I was pregnant, because the shot Vlad gave me a couple nights before the IUI had a chance of giving us a false positive pregnancy test.

I was supposed to wait, but I tested the day before I went to the doctor–I couldn’t contain myself. I didn’t think I was pregnant, I didn’t feel pregnant, nothing seemed different. I took the test and waited, as usual. I walked out of the room and came back a few minutes later. I saw the word pregnant but assumed the word “not” was included. It wasn’t. It said “pregnant.” That was the only word on the test, and I kept staring at it. This test that had told me month after month that I wasn’t pregnant was now telling me I was. Vlad was getting our car fixed, and I was supposed to go pick him up. His birthday was a few days later, so I ran downstairs to get a card that I had been holding on to for the longest time. The outside read “I can’t wait to meet Mini You!” On the inside, I wrote, “Coming November 2016… I think!” I told him it was an early birthday present, and when he opened the card he had tears in his eyes. I did too. It was surreal.

The next day, the blood test confirmed it, and in the following few weeks I continued with blood work to make sure my hCG levels were rising at the rate they should be. I was also on progesterone, twice a day for 12 weeks, to keep those hormone levels ideal for pregnancy. My first ultrasound was around 6.5 weeks, and our baby looked like a bean. (Actually, I thought she was a mini manatee, but most people see a bean.) Her heart was beating so fast, and when I heard it, I started crying. She was there, inside me, growing.

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My journey was so much longer than some people’s, but far shorter than others. I’ve talked to so many women who have been through so much more, it makes my heart heavy. We were lucky; Vlad and I tell everyone that anytime I tell my story. I had an issue that was discovered very quickly, and there was an answer for it. Not everyone is so lucky, and I learned so much along the way: how to remind yourself you aren’t broken, how to feel whole and love yourself even when one part of you isn’t working the way you want it to, how to be patient with yourself. I also found that people want to help but sometimes say things that aren’t helpful at all. No one wants to upset you, but sometimes they will. Some people will tell you how they took much longer, and it always came off like I shouldn’t be sad for not being pregnant yet because it took them or someone they know longer. It’s still sad, I still caught myself feeling “less than” so often. If you have a friend trying to get pregnant and having issues, support them, offer them a hug or a shoulder to lean on, let them talk to you if they want to. There is no perfect thing to say, but I would suggest staying away from the “just relax” or “this isn’t meant to be right now” and go with “I love you and I’m here for you in any way, I’m sorry.”

It’s hard. And for so many of my friends and people that I don’t know and will never know, it is still a journey and a struggle. I wish I had a fix for you. I wish it were as straightforward for you as it was for me. I know that isn’t always the case, and I send you my love. Some don’t just struggle with the emotional and physical toll, but also the financial toll of trying to conceive. You are not alone; there are a lot of us with you.

It all felt so long during the process, but now I have a baby girl inside me and the issues feel like a distant memory. I feel her kicks and movements and keep learning a little more about her each day. Last night, I learned she loves fried peanut butter and jelly sandwiches. Her favorite time to have a one-woman dance party is right when I lay down for bed. I found my morning sickness with her could only be cured by constantly eating. Vlad touches my belly each night and for weeks has been able to feel her kicking. The other day our dog stepped on my belly by accident and she kicked right back. I already knew this part, but now am living it: not everyone will only gain belly weight and be back in their normal jeans right after delivery, and that is ok! If you have one of those bodies and pregnancies, amazing, that happens too! The one aspect I catch myself thinking of daily is that this little girl is inside of me growing, and I love her more every day. This is my little girl, she was meant to be with us, and I cannot wait to be her mom.

Everyone’s journey is unique, but I hope this helps even just one of you, gives you a little hope or helps you know you aren’t alone if you’re struggling. And if you are at your wits’ end with your kids driving you nuts, this may help you remember those little moments that you savored while pregnant and anticipating your little one’s arrival. Thank you all for sharing in our joy; it means more to me than you’ll ever know! Someday, I’ll be able to show Baby Girl Dusil all of your well wishes, and I know it will be something special for her.

♥ Megs

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  • psny15

    those prada bags are adorable

    • I know, they’re so good!

      • psny15

        its sad that Prada has just fizzled and they dont hire an accessories designer to revive the brand

  • Heidi Davis

    Megs. this is so beautifully written. I didn’t have fertility problems, but I have had other personal struggles in life and felt similar things–shame, confusion, anger, and finally peace. I have found that being open about these things is very healthy and healing. Congrats on your impending motherhood. I have three children and they are everything to me. You are in for the most wonderful ride of your life!! XOXO

    • Thank you! And yes, I feel like all of us have struggles that may differ but the feelings are similar.

      I’m so excited to be her mom!

  • C

    Thanks for sharing Megs! The process can’t have been easy and I’m so happy that it worked out for you and Vlad. FWIW, I think you’ll be a wonderful mother – your kindness, love of sharing, and attention to detail comes through in every blog post and interaction you have with us readers.

    Now you’ve got me feeling sentimental too. Luxury purses and shoes may be mere frills and fluff, but PB has done a valuable thing, connecting women (and men) from all different lifestyles, socioeconomic statures, and even continents and allowing us to share our passions in a friendly community. At a time when there’s so much meanness and conflict in the world, PB is a wonderful ten-minute oasis for me every day.

    • Thank you so much, truly!! I have a wonderful mother and because of her I know what it takes to be a great mom to my little one on the way!

      I say it all the time – there is more to this site and community than bags, it’s proven time and time again. And even if we are just a little getaway, how nice is that to get away from the meanness in the world for just a minute and chat with people who like similar things!

  • Yai

    Thank you so much for sharing your journey! I cannot imagine what it must have been like, but I have friends and family who have had to deal with fertility issues. I have forwarded to a few already! It is so helpful when you are going though difficult times to know you are not alone, and I am sure your story will help and encourage many. Congratulations to you and Vlad as you start this new journey! Wishing you the best of health, peace and joy.. And of course, she will be one stylish baby….

    • I hope it helps a few of them, even if just a little! I do think people feel so alone and it’s nice to know that many have difficult times, in all aspects of life, and we are never quite as alone as how we sometimes feel.

      Thank you! Vlad and I are so excited to be her parents!

  • Yoshi1296

    Thank you for sharing this. I’m sorry you both had to go through all this struggle, but I am glad it worked out for you and Vlad in the end! Congrats on the wonderful bundle of joy yet to come!

    • We are constantly looking at one another saying how lucky we are!! Thank you, we can’t wait to meet her and introduce her to all of you!

  • guest

    Meg, I am glad you shared your story. As a physician looking after women who put so much pressure on themselves for not being able to conceive, your story resonates with me. Look after yourself for the rest of the pregnancy, both physically and emotionally. this will be the most remarkable journey you and Vlad will ever embark on!

    • Thank you so much! I know that feeling – the pressure you feel to conceive happens quicker than you think. Have had a really nice pregnancy otherwise! My first trimester was a bit rough, but this second trimester has been awesome – just feeling her is so cool!

  • Aurore de La Gorce

    Again, congratulations Megs and Vlad ! Megs, you were saying the other day that you’re sure being a mother will change the way you perceive your bags and what you want of them.
    OMG you can’t imagine the change it will be ! It took me a year to finally figure out what kind of bag I wanted now, and yes, you were right when you said the Lucrezia is the perfect bag for young mums ^^ just saying though :)

    • Ahh I’m going to be doing so many reviews thinking of being a mom! I need to make some sort of page where I review the best mom bags and why and you can see it all in one place! That’s my next idea that needs to come to fruition!

      • Aurore de La Gorce

        Oh yes that would be great ! I can’t wait to “meet” your little girl ! I hope she’s going to be the kind that sleeps ! ;)
        And that she’ll like purses. I have a little boy but he definitely likes to help his mom choose handbags and shoes. He even notices the ones I like on websites and picks them up for me when in stores. He’s a gem ;) !

      • ohhhhhh you and me both!! My youngest brother slept through the night from his first night home from the hospital! My mom did have 3 of us who did not do that, but my baby brother did and I’m hoping for a baby like that!!! HA!

        Your son sounds adorable! Trying to rest now, but I’ve been waking up earlier and earlier! Guess my body is prepping!

  • Tang

    Hi Meg, I am currently experiencing difficulties getting pregnant. But unlike you, I haven’t made up my mind if I want to go see a doctor to find the problem. I already have a boy who is 8 this year and he was a honeymoon baby. It was so easy and we fell pregnant within a month of trying. When he was 18 months old, he was diagnosed with ASD (Autistic Spectrum Disorder). My world fell apart. At that point in time, the diagnosis was overwhelming and crushing and I was adamant that I will not have a second child. I wasn’t sure if I was strong enough to handle a second child with ASD and I can give the same amount of unconditional love (I personally think that ASD boils down to genetics and it’s hereditary). Time dragged on and when I finally decided that I want a second child and am able give love no matter what, I haven’t been able to fall pregnant. We have been trying for the last 3 years but with no success. And relatives have been telling me to see my gynae but now I am filled with indecision. Bcos again, I am questioning myself the same thing: what if I put myself through IvF etc etc and the second child has ASD. Will I be able to accept? I am below 35 years old. And if it is so hard to conceive, maybe it is just not meant to be. I am really not sure. And on the other hand, leaving my son with no siblings seems like a bad reality for him after my husband and I pass on. But everyday tasks with an ASD child in school/society can be so demanding and unforgiving. Thanks for sharing and I am so happy you are pregnant. And thanks for reminding me the simple kind of joy I had felt when I was pregnant. All the best!

    • You sound like such an amazing, caring mother – it shows and your son is so lucky to have you! That decision can not be easy and it’s something I’ve seen from so many women – we become a mother before we are ever pregnant. You are making decisions as a mom to protect your child already, and whatever is in the plan for you, I wish you the best!! <3

  • kemilia

    Congrats and thank you for sharing!

    I am not a mom (I knew pretty early on that parent-hood was not for me) but I am a darn great Aunt to two great kids. When my niece was born, we bonded so well (she is a wonderful girl in college now) and we still go lunching and shopping (and also go to chick flicks that her mom just rolls her eyes about) and that time with her is just the best. You will make a great Mom, and Vlad will be a great Dad. And Brutus (can’t forget him) will be a loyal big brother. I am so happy for all of you. :)

    • I think it’s great that you knew what you wanted and what you didn’t want! Sounds like an amazing relationship you share with your niece!

      Brutus isn’t ready for what’s coming! Any toy we have for the baby he thinks is his, but I hope he will be a protective big dog brother!! We are working with our trainers to prep him, he’s such a sweet little dude!

  • Lisa

    What a moving story, Megs! This community IS about sharing and C, below, says it beautifully.

    My own journey also had its ups and downs. My first pregnancy was easy — happened the second month we tried. Two years later we were ready for #2 and it took a little longer but I got pregnant. This time, however, I miscarried — and there is no more lonely feeling in the world. I figured I’d get pregnant again once my body had a chance to recover. Not. Very long story short, after more two years of tests, injections etc., I was able to conceive using Clomid. After more issues like placenta previa, my daughter was born 4.5 years after my son, and since she was born with the umbilical cord wrapped around her neck twice, I was very lucky not to lose her.

    Whether any of you out there want kids, have kids, or struggle to have kids, just be kind to each other. Sometimes we look at photos of someone with a collection of luxury bags and think their lives must be perfect. Or we wish we had what they have. It sometimes takes this kind of experience to put things in perspective.

    Wishing you the very best of luck as you continue your journey to parenthood. But don’t be too disappointed if your little girl turns out to be a tomboy! Mine — who just turned 26 — has absolutely no interest in my bags :-(

    xoxo,
    Alisa
    http://www.olderfatterhappier.com
    ¨

    • I think social media has made many people curate a certain life they want people to believe they live. But there is a lack of transparency and a lack of “real life” that is shown. I know there are so many people who I look at that ‘appear’ to have the best life, but when you peel back the layers there is so much more.

      I’m so glad your kids have a loving mom like you! And trust me, I feel like because the universe is always playing tricks my daughter may not like bags! But I want her to find what she loves and love it, and just love her life!

      • Lisa

        You have the right attitude :-) — it is sometimes difficult to remember that they are their own people, not “mini-me’s”. My daughter definitely has her own passions and ideas and they do not include any sort of conspicuous consumption or need to impress others. However, the last time I visited her she commented on my Chanel Boy bag so maybe there is hope, haha. I’m hanging on to my good bags in case she comes around!

  • V

    Megs thank you for sharing this. I truly believe that more women need to discuss their fertility issues openly. I was a member of the IVF club and it wasn’t easy for me. I would go to the doctor’s office and wonder to myself, if this place is so packed all the time, why aren’t more women discussing this? I guess it’s for the same reason why I decided not to start a blog about my personal journey, I was embarrassed. I kept thinking to myself, why can’t I do the one thing in life that I’m “suppose” to be able to do? I did everything else that everyone else wanted me to do in life, get a degree, get a good job, be an upstanding citizen…and the one thing that I’ve wanted since I was a kid, I physically can’t do. I just didn’t think it was fair.

    I do believe that there are no mistakes in life. I truly believe that your baby girl is your baby girl. With me, I’ve learned that sometimes you don’t get exactly what you ask
    for. Maybe “my baby” is something else. I believe that now. (It took a few years and many tears to get to that point. It also took those drugs coming out of my system…emotional mess for at least a year. But I got here and I think that’s the important part.)

    I’m grateful that you shared. I know that someone may find the courage to go thru one more round of IVF because of your post. Someone may heal. This is gonna sound really corny but… this is your moment, you and Vlad, enjoy the ride! We’re really excited to tag along! xoxo

    • I had to come back to tell you your post made me teary-eyed. It is clear from how much love you have. And I totally know the feeling of being embarrassed – I felt less-than many times.

      I still count myself so lucky. I know that many, like you, go through IVF many rounds and a baby still isn’t a guarantee for them. That is hard and seems so unfair.

      I wish I could do something to fix this for you. You are a strong, loving person and you deserve the best – I hope that’s exactly what you are given!

  • First of all, congratulations to you and Vlad! Second, thank you for sharing your story. In this crazy, scary world and time we are living in, it’s wonderful to hear/read stories of people’s hopes and dreams coming true and of people sending out love, support, hope to the world, as you have here. I wish you and your growing family the best!

    • Thank you so much Katrina!! I was hoping it would share a little hope and joy, glad it was able to!

  • Imgoingbroke

    Beautiful story Megs and Vlad. Congratulations. I smiled through the entire story. I’m so happy for you. What a wonderful blog to read. I can’t wait to read all the updates on your pregnancy. YAY!!!!

    • Thank you!! I will of course share more! Today I was looking at the calendar and realized she will be here before I know it!!!

      • Imgoingbroke

        What’s her name?

  • Hclubfan

    I am so unbelievably happy for you both!! I was so choked up after reading your post last night…it took me this long to respond! Can’t wait to welcome baby Dusil to our big tpf family (we need to figure out a way to throw you a virtual baby shower)!!

    • Thank you!! I know it’s so personal what I shared, but I really wanted to share. I just know so many people struggle silently and even if I am able to help one person, it makes me really happy!

      Baby Dusil is already so loved!

  • Brenda

    Megs, thank you so much for sharing the journey with us. It is so beautifully written and I am in tears. Congratulations again to you and Vlad. The baby girl is gonna be so loved!

    • Thank you Brenda! I love her so much all ready and I truly am thrilled to be her mom! It’s all still a bit surreal!

  • John

    Thank you for sharing Megs! Reading your journey reminds me to never give up despite all the obstacles thrown at you. I don’t have fertility problems (because I’m a guy!) but I’m currently going through a challenge of my own with my foster son. His birth mother keeps on changing her mind whether she wants to give up her son or not but ended up forbidding me and my partner from taking him out of the orphanage (even though she herself doesn’t want to take responsibility for him.) She couldn’t accept her son sees me and my partner as his real parents, his daddies. The frustrating part is the nuns are letting her be and make the rules. I am still praying one day she’ll change her mind because we love him so much.

    I’m just grateful you shared your journey. Wishing you and Vlad lots of blessings! <3

    • I’m sending you my love and prayers for a resolution that is best for both you and that little guy, he deserves it! It’s clear in your writing that you care deeply for him and make a great father.

      I know we all have struggles and though not all of our struggles are the same, it’s good to be able to talk about them and share. Sending you love!!

  • Kristin

    Megs, such an honest, poignant article. Thank you. I am so happy for you both and cannot wait to see pics of your little girl! Congratulations, again!

  • Chronic

    Congratulations! My daughter was having very similar issues. It is very rough on many couples and the stress can lead to divorce. Anyway, she finally got pregnant after a year of trying and is also expecting a baby girl, sometime in mid-October.

    • I am so lucky to have Vlad who has been so supportive! But even with that, I don’t think any man can understand what a woman is going through. Happy to hear your daughter had luck and is expecting a baby girl soon as well!

  • Giselle

    What a journey Megs! Thank you for sharing, enjoy your pregnancy as much as you can, I know it’s not always easy :). Everytime I read something like this, I realize how strong we are, as women. Child bearing and birth is one of the toughest things we endure, including all emotions and changes in body.

    • I know, every single day I am more and more impressed with myself and my body! I love that I am able to experience this and have her growing inside of me. Women are so powerful!!

  • Michelle

    Thank you for sharing this on Purseblog! I’m also pregnant, with baby #2 actually. My over-the-chart hormones and your story made me cry like a baby. But they are happy tears in the end. :) I’m truly happy for you and Vlad. Each pregnancy and childbirth is different and cannot be compared, but they are all life-changing and precious. As a woman, and a mother, you never know how much strength you have until you go through this amazing journey of life. I’m rooting for you Megs! – for a great rest of your pregnancy and smooth delivery. Remember our bodies are capable of doing amazing things that our brains can never understand. All the best to you, and enjoy!!!

    • Thank you Michelle!! I know, pregnancy hormones are no joke! My dog was stressed the other day and looked sad, so I cried and held him. It was such an over-the-top reaction!

      Congrats on baby number 2, hope you’re feeling well! Women’s bodies ARE amazing, that you are so right about!

  • Belle

    Congratulations Megs! You will truly appreciate being a mother and I know you would be a great one. Cheers to a beautiful journey with Vlad. Enjoy the remaining time together as just a couple. Take care of yourself always! :*

    • I know! We are savoring the last few months of just the two of us (and our dog Brutus!). I know our lives are going to change drastically, but we are both so excited!

  • cclady

    Hi Megs, congratulations!! My sister went through the same thing, and still trying to conceive. Your writing is heartwarming. I read this purseblog almost everyday (!) by the way, and it’s always interesting to read your writing on anything. I hope your pregnancy, the baby girl delivery, and life afterwards with the whole family runs smoothly.

    • I’m sending your sister tons of love and baby vibes! It is probably one of the hardest things ever – to want to be a mom and not have an easy time getting pregnant.

      Thank you so much! I’ll be sure to be sharing more!

  • Kweenhelene

    What an amazing woman you are to share this with us. I am the mother of three grown boys and I had trouble conceiving the first and second time. Also I suffered from horrible periods and a crazy cycle and fibroids……you name it. But three beautiful grown young men are in the world today because I never gave up hope. Good luck to you. You and Vlad are going to be great parents!

    • I’m so glad to hear you have your three boys! Crazy cycles and fibroids definitely make it all harder – plus painful!

      We are so excited to be parents to this little one growing inside of me!

  • Amazona

    You’re not alone, and I think the world would be a much, much, MUCH better place if everyone had the strength and courage to share their struggle. Thank you for sharing yours, and also congrats on your great adventure you’re embarking on!

    • I am not alone and I still count myself as incredibly lucky! I hope that others are able to find a group of people they trust to speak openly with, I know how helpful it has been for me :). I don’t mean publicly, even just a close group of friends!

      • Amazona

        To have anyone to talk to and the courage to speak out is a blessing – and it’s not just with these kinds of issues; mine is domestic violence. I speak openly about it in hopes of relieving the stigma and maybe giving someone the strength to leave an abusive relationship.

        Everyone has their struggle and most of the time, it’s easier to share than to keep it inside. For a strong, influential person like yourself to speak out is more empowering than anything, and a great way of using your influence to benefit others!

  • LC

    CONGRATS! Great story and ending. :)